Below are the 2 most recent journal entries recorded in a_fading_shadow's LiveJournal:

Saturday, January 14th, 2006
1:12 pm	Ranting!! Stupid punk ass kid busted my windshield, got glass in my eye- it hurts--I might secretly like it..hmm. Then one of my regular customers starting abusing his wife right there at the bar, F'ing asshole, the cops came, he didn't even get arrested, I wanted to scream but was at work so of course had to maintain my composure, so instead I went into the bathroom and cut, I couldn't help it, I had to get my emotions under control. Then at my other job one of my fav residents died, of course that caused me to feel helpless and I don't even know what else, again more cutting, argh! Needed stitches, finally went to a clinic because the bleeding wouldn't stop, I wasn't ready to die yet, - doc said "too many hours has passed can't do stitches" damn! They cauterized it, bandaged it and sent me on my merry way. I don't know why but I just have to call them stupid fucks. The whole lot of them. Okay I think my rant is over. (Comment on this)
Monday, January 9th, 2006
11:11 am	Release Release I want to cut myself open and watch the blood tears fall To free my insides, my skin and flesh I must mual Rip it open to reveal flesh, bone, and vein Releasing slowly the built-up pressure of pain It's the way I cry and release my tears It lets out my pain, shame, and fears I'm tired of being locked in this silent hell My blood-letting is a silent-yell The blood runs down my arms and drops to the floor Another cut, another slash, I need more I don't mind if they scar It reminds me that I made it this far In my pocket a razor I shall hold Because the heat of my blood warms me when I am alone and cold Sometimes I feel so dead inside I need to see my blood to prove that I am alive Other times al the emotions just come at the same time I cut myself to remind me that everything will be fine Deeper, deeper, and deeper I must go How deep is deep enoug, I don't know I want to take my rage and hate out on this body and make it cry I don't care if in the process that means I die (Comment on this)